A new me, a new you and an almost new heart. I'm so glad I'm moving on and that we're still friends. There's a new person stepping into the picture, but I'm unsure of how I feel for him. All I want now is to move on from you and have a fresh start with a new heart. I'll still be the same with you, but I just won't have those extra feelings. I'm glad they're off my hands now. I don't have much time to blog nowadays. I'll try to post more...maybe. But I'll end today off knowing that I have a healing heart and the remedy to fix it. k3
"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about." -Unknown.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Moving On; I Think. k3
I can't believe it. Half of me doesn't want to believe it. But I think I'm actually moving on from my crush on you. Slowly; bit by bit I'm only thinking of you as a good friend, not a boyfriend anymore. I'm relieved that I am finally able to let that part of me go, it was useless; all it did was hurt me. I don't want anything to change between us when these feelings die. I hope we remain the same because I'll always need you by my side. I came to you in my time of need and you were always there to cheer me up and make me feel better. I've opened my eyes and became aware of everything around me, from moving onto you, I'm seeing new people; who have always treated me nicely and I never thought of giving them a chance.
Well I finally inched closer to figuring out our strange terms. We're on good terms as of this moment. I think you finally understand that sometimes things you say hurt a lot, cause you're calming down on your words. We're hardly on bad terms now but I still do wish we spent more time together, as friends. I know we've tried to have time together, but it always gets interrupted. It frustrates me but we just got to keep trying. We can't possible scale things off to MSN or a couple minute conversations before others come around.
I still can't believe that I'm moving on, but I'm now seeing a new person in a particular light. I'm 100% sure about my feelings for him, but who knows. I'll give it time to figure everything out. I'm curious to tell you about this, maybe I will. I've actually stopped thinking about you more and now I'm aware of the things happening. I think this chance is for the best, give it time and the change will be complete. At this moment, I'm moving on...I think. k3
"It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does." -Unknown.
Well I finally inched closer to figuring out our strange terms. We're on good terms as of this moment. I think you finally understand that sometimes things you say hurt a lot, cause you're calming down on your words. We're hardly on bad terms now but I still do wish we spent more time together, as friends. I know we've tried to have time together, but it always gets interrupted. It frustrates me but we just got to keep trying. We can't possible scale things off to MSN or a couple minute conversations before others come around.
I still can't believe that I'm moving on, but I'm now seeing a new person in a particular light. I'm 100% sure about my feelings for him, but who knows. I'll give it time to figure everything out. I'm curious to tell you about this, maybe I will. I've actually stopped thinking about you more and now I'm aware of the things happening. I think this chance is for the best, give it time and the change will be complete. At this moment, I'm moving on...I think. k3
"It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does." -Unknown.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Good Terms; Bad Terms. k3
Me and you...it seems like a smaller idea now. It's not as big and you aren't as big to me like before. Those stupid feelings are still here, but they're slowly fading. I'm so confused about the relationship we have; I know we'll always be friends but we're constantly either on good terms or bad terms. And sometimes it's more bad terms and it's usually for stupid reasons. I know I don't mind much about anything but sometimes, you take things so far. It may seem amusing to you and at times me, but everything gets old after awhile. I wish you'd stop acting strange and getting mad for random reasons. You're confusing me and hurting me and it's not fun at all.
Looking around, I've realized that love is in the air. But why can't a snag a gasp of it? Ugh. It's frustrating because my focus has been on you this whole time, I was oblivious to everyone around me. It's difficult, it's hard but it's just how I feel. I wish I had realized this was going no where but I just didn't want to give up. We had our good terms today, talking, hanging out, laughing. It felt really good to be by your side like usual. But there were moments when your little words hurt me more than anything. I'm confused at what you said, unsure if it's what you want or that you're just kidding. I'm not sure of when you say that, if we're on good terms or bad. I'm so confused, but all I can do is wait and see what happens.
Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Been busy with jams, homework, sleep. But I'll continue on now, I hope there's a brighter day ahead tomorrow. But I really do need to figure out this odd good terms, bad terms thing going on between us. Please take it easy because you don't know how easily you can hurt me. I just want us to figure out where we are standing on; good terms or bad terms. k3
"Though I haven’t told you how much I care, how much you mean to me; it's not that I don’t value you now. But if you only knew how much fear I have in losing you, then you'll understand how much I care." -Unknown.
Looking around, I've realized that love is in the air. But why can't a snag a gasp of it? Ugh. It's frustrating because my focus has been on you this whole time, I was oblivious to everyone around me. It's difficult, it's hard but it's just how I feel. I wish I had realized this was going no where but I just didn't want to give up. We had our good terms today, talking, hanging out, laughing. It felt really good to be by your side like usual. But there were moments when your little words hurt me more than anything. I'm confused at what you said, unsure if it's what you want or that you're just kidding. I'm not sure of when you say that, if we're on good terms or bad. I'm so confused, but all I can do is wait and see what happens.
Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Been busy with jams, homework, sleep. But I'll continue on now, I hope there's a brighter day ahead tomorrow. But I really do need to figure out this odd good terms, bad terms thing going on between us. Please take it easy because you don't know how easily you can hurt me. I just want us to figure out where we are standing on; good terms or bad terms. k3
"Though I haven’t told you how much I care, how much you mean to me; it's not that I don’t value you now. But if you only knew how much fear I have in losing you, then you'll understand how much I care." -Unknown.
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