Your Actions; Speak The Loudest. k3

Another day, another time. Once again I'm by your side breathless and helpless. You know the saying; "Actions speak louder than words." And to me, your actions speak the loudest. In my heart and in my mind, I can not deny that I feel this way. We may argue, we may make each other angry, but in the end we're always JUST friends. I can never stay mad or disappointed in you, even though at times your actions hurt me more than anything. I'm cleaning up your mess, I'm fixing what you've done, yet my actions seem to just skim past you, never realizing what I've done for you and how much I care about you.

You don't know that every time we're together, my heart skips a beat. You don't know that every time we touch, my mind goes running on; about a chance of us together. You don't know that every time we hug and hold hands, I want to hold onto you forever, not wanting to let go or lose you to anyone else. You don't know that this is the way I feel about you. But I wish you did, I really want you to, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what will happen if you knew; Are our feelings mutual? What would happen to our friendship if it isn't? What would you think? What would you feel? The list goes on, dragging me farther away from the idea of showing you how I feel.

I'm frustrated and confused. I try to pull away from you but your actions and words constantly pull me back. I try to push you away, thinking you aren't the one but I can't seem to find anyone else who makes me feel this way. I can't help it, it's the way I feel. Your actions speak the loudest to me, please use them carefully and don't break my heart. It's all you that can make me feel this way. I hope that I can either pull free from you or actually get into your heart. We'll see how it goes, but as of now, it's all you in my mind and heart. k3