Painful; Hangover. k3

I still can't believe that I feel the same a yesterday. The pain hasn't increased or subsided yet. It hurts so bad and I wish it would go away. The feeling is horrible, it's like knowing you're going to die but not doing anything about it. I feel it at the pit of my stomach and most of all at the center of my heart. It sucks. It hurts, but I can't do anything to change it. I'll just have to wait for it to go away...which I hope it will eventually.

My heart can't wait around for yours forever. I know it will give up, I want it to give up. And now, every fault that you inflict on me has become huge. I use to ignore the mistakes you made, but now when I think about them, you aren't that great of a person to me anymore. I want to believe that you are not 'the one' and that there's someone else...but only if I would just let you go. You are a good, dear friend and I'll always think of you in that way. But the little extra part of me that wants to be more than friends, must be gone.

For once, I'm not excited to see you again after this weekend. I hope it continues on like this so I can breathe and think easier. But I still do feel this painful hangover because of my torn heart. k3

"It hurts like shit." -Unknown.